Inner emptiness... Why not....i give myself n my lord a chance...just..one more time?

Fine...at tat moment, i hv literally ntg left?wat could cost more?my life?take it then

I sat down n prayed again...i pray for my recovery...

i pray for the every single wound tat i hv inside out...
Lord, i pray for my health...if i could ever let my brain work normally like it was before..
i pray tat i can feel just a lil...
i pray tat lord god can touch my heart again...

I had nothing....but i still believe....well tat's the least i can do...
i start believing....as i said..i hv ntg to lose anymore..

i believe lord will come again
im a child of my heavenly God, if u were thr....hear me lord.... ur daughter so hope tat u can wrap me inside ur chest, i want to be in my comfort zone....

every single day, i will pray n read the readings everyday(it's holiday, ntg much i can do)
i start to have novena to pray that lord can heal me...

n u know, lord actually didnt abandoned me....
in my understanding later on...although i dunno whether it is true...but it is like lord telling me he nvr wanted me to had such hardship....he teared n hugged me so tight....he said im sorry my child....bt thr r challenges tat life will give.... i know it was not His fault... it was something else... some might think im superstitious... well i dunno..i just felt as if some other is thr...bothering me before...when i was so weak tat they took advantage on me...tat i  did nt let lord in as im so not believing at the worst circumstances.....

Lord...Im sorry....

Everything seems to change ever since i start BELIEVING
I continue pray for healing every day...n to my surprise, i felt better n better, my brain had totally overcome the phobia i was having n i start to feel a little by little nw....

Not much.....but i shall not rush....

It is not like a painkiller tat kills ur pain one shot, it takes time for ur wounds to heal n scars to fade
So y not let Lord heal a little by little...his hands can be so warm tat u felt so loved.... a little by little, i trusted n i know i will be fully recovered n be the loving person in used to be... I just know i will, dun ask me why
I just cant stop believing
I encourage every single soul tat is feeling empty to start believing
i do not know whether u r a theist or not, i hope u can walk thru ur inner emptiness bit by bit by believing(sry if it is an offense to u tat im calling u to believe thr's a god up thr)
but u know, thr's really not much u can lose

dun u worry child, my lord is a loving lord, n if u can, cross all ur fingers, just say tat in ur heart
"would u ever heal me? can u?pls?"

someone as minute as me can be heard, y not u?

it sure is a big word for me to say, but i just wan the whole world to know
that I AM a MIRACLE of God